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Well I survived the trip to Mexico. I came home relaxed and rested which is exactly what I wanted. I also got a killer tan.  

Thanksgiving came and went. I spent it with my family as usual. We had a great time, as usual.

I met a man. He makes my heart flutter. :) We're enjoying each others company for the time being. :)

Everything in my life is finally falling into place and I couldn't be happier.

I'll update with pictures of my trip later. Just wanted to give a quick update. Peace.

Oosterdam

Tomorrow I set sail on my first cruise! The last time I had a an actual vacation (Hawaii) was back in 2004 so this trip is not only well deserved but also it couldn't have come at a better time in my life. It'll just be my cousin L and I. This trip is a birthday gift to ourselves. Her birthday is at the end of the month and mine was on the 4th.

I have to leave my house at 8am tomorrow morning to go pick her up. I keep trying to remember if there's anything else I need to pack. I was smart about it this time and started packing 2 weeks in advance. I'm a notorious under-packer so I wanted to make sure this time around that I don't forget anything. However, now I think I've packed too much stuff because I have to sit on my suitcase in order to close it. I have a separate suitcase that's just for accessories and toiletries. That suitcase is full too. Yikes! 

Anyway, I'm off. Peace!

Exactly a week ago I wrote my best friend T a letter saying that I needed some space from him and he ultimately ended our friendship right then and there. I figured he would have reacted poorly to my letter but I never expected a comment like, "Have a nice life." Just like that, the friendship was gone.

The back story behind this is that for the last 5 years that we've been friends I had always had a thing for him. We talked all day every day for years. It became increasingly hard to handle my emotions as the years progressed. I shared my feelings with him and was rejected several times because he didn't want to "ruin the friendship". I guess I had always figured that some day he'd come around. In between that I had quite a few boyfriends but still, a big part of my heart belonged to him. I knew it wasn't healthy and it was holding me back from truly being happy but it took years for me to finally be strong enough to make the decision I made.

As I told him in my letter I was roaming around myspace and I clicked on one of his friends. I looked at her pictures and I saw a picture of him biting her neck or something along those lines. The way I reacted when I saw that picture, was not the way a friend should react. At that moment, I knew that this was becoming a bigger issue than I had originally thought so I needed to stop letting him consume my all of my time. All I meant was that I just needed to not talk to him all day every day because it made getting over him impossible. After that, things got ugly.

He accused me of snooping (which in my defense, I hardly think clicking on one of his friends profiles hardly constitutes as snooping) and gave me an earful about me not being okay with him having friends that are girls. That's not the case but of course I know he was just reacting to the situation because he was hurting. I don't that he will ever know or realize how much it hurt me to have to go to those measures but again, I need to think about myself for a change.

So that was that. The end of an era. The end of Yim and Yen. The memories will always be there but now, it's time for me to be brave, hold my head up high and move on.

I got a new haircut today.

New haircut

Side shot of new haircut

I love it!

I am VERY disappointed in the decision to have gay marriage banned. I know that the final results aren't in but it's pretty evident that the churches will win this time around. It honestly doesn't make any sense to me. Why can't we just let people live their own lives? Why? I want to know how a gay person getting married effects a straight individuals life.  

Religion is a very private thing to me however what I've learned is that God is Love. God loves us all and made us the way we are for a reason. I wish people would stop letting fear rule their lives. It upsets me that these people are teaching their children this type of intolerance. Last night, before we went to vote my mother told me that she decided to change her mind about Prop 8. She was originally for the ban but last night she decided that love needed to rule over fear. I am so proud of her for making that decision. It's nice to know that she heard my voice.

Today is bittersweet. Although I'm upset about Prop 8 passing I'm so thankful that we elected Mr. Barack Obama as our next President. His speech last night was so moving and brought me to tears. My family and I were sitting in the restaurant last night (celebrating my birthday) when the announcement came on that Mr. Obama was our new president. I was surprised that he won by such a landslide but it just goes to show that the system we were using before, wasn't working and now it's time to try something else.

Last night, history was made and I couldn't be prouder to share my birthday with such a historic day. My boss asked me yesterday how I was going to celebrate my birthday and I told her my family and I were going to vote together. She said, "How many people can say that they are going to celebrate their birthday by voting for our next president?" It warmed my heart to hear that. Needless to say, I got my birthday wish. :)

Worn with pride

Jason and the moon

Last Saturday, I went to see Jason Mraz at the Greek Amphitheater in L.A. I'd have to say that The Greek is probably one of my favorite venues along with Montalvo up in Saratoga. I took my cousin L with me seeing as she was the person who originally introduced me to Mr. Mraz's music. She had a wonderful time. She said out of all the concerts that she's gone to (we're probably talking around 30 here) that this was probably her favorite out of all of them.  

The audience was almost as amazing as Jason himself. Everyone vibed really well. We all sang in harmony and danced upon Jason's request. I loved the fact that Jason brought the gospel choir with him on stage. They really kicked it up a notch. There was this one incredible moment during "A Beautiful Mess" where everyone was hanging on to Jason's words, he paused for a moment and there was complete silence. All I could hear was the sound of the wind within the trees. I almost had tears in my eyes. Every time I see Jason I feel like I'm a parent watching their kid on their first day of kindergarten. I'm so proud of him and all of his accomplishments. He will continually inspire me to be the best person that I can possibly be.

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So tomorrow is my 26th birthday. I've decided not to have a negative outlook on my birthday anymore. The way I see it, I'm a miracle. The odds of me surviving birth was 1 in 6 million so I should be grateful for every minute I have on this earth. I am blessed to have a wonderful family, great friends, food in my belly and a roof over my head. I really have nothing to gripe about.

Tonight Sue Ann, Coreen, Mike and I are going to Roy's for dinner. We were going to wait until Wednesday however Sue Ann is having surgery in the next few weeks and has to start a liquid diet tomorrow so we have to do this today. I'm totally fine with that. I've been daydreaming about Roy's for 2 weeks now. The butterfish is phenomenal!

Tomorrow is voting day and my birthday wish is that that everyone will go out there and elect Obama as our next president. Since I can't have two wishes I pray that Prop 8 doesn't get passed. Hopefully my wish and prayers will be answered. :) 

So as I mentioned a few days ago, I had to make the decision to put my cat down last Saturday. I think that when she had the surgery, maybe one of the vet techs gave her too much of whatever drugs they were pumping her with, which ultimately created some brain damage. She seemed like she was getting better but she still couldn't walk completely normal and every once in awhile she'd tense up and start crying. I didn't think much of it because she didn't do it often.

On Saturday I had just gotten back from the dentist and my mom was downstairs heating up leftovers for lunch for herself when she went upstairs. The microwave kept going off so after about 10 minutes I finally went upstairs and she was coming out of her bedroom with tears in her eyes. I asked her what was wrong and she said that Kelee kept having seizure after seizure. I went into see her and Kelee started purring the instant she saw me. I pet her for a good ten minutes and during that time she had 2 seizures. My mother called the vet (the ones who caused the brain damage) and they wanted $190 to put her down. We decided to called the local animal shelter and they said we could bring her in. 

On the way to the shelter I held her in the car and she was doing so good. She stayed in my arms the whole time, purring and she actually seemed content. A few times she would look up at me and I would kiss her forehead. I tried to keep the water works at bay and be strong for my mother who was driving.  It was a long drive but I was fine with that because it extended my time with her.

When we finally got to the shelter they initially turned us away. We told them that the person on the phone said we could bring her there. The lady came out and looked at Kelee without an ounce of emotion and walked away after looking at her. While she was doing that my mom was forced to write an essay as to why we were putting her down which I think is absolutely ridiculous! You're already traumatized because you have to put your animal who you love very much down but then you have to write an essay as to why. That's just fucked up!  Anyway, I had my mother hold onto her while I said my last few words. Another lady came out, ripped Kelee from our arms and walked away. And that was that.  

I'm doing okay all things considering. I know what we did was for the best. My dearly departed aunt once said that Kelee was the best cat we ever had. I pray that they are up in Heaven together keeping each other company. Kelee knows I love her and would have done anything for her, even if it meant ending her pain...

Kelee Close Up R.I.P.

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I had to put my cat Kelee down today. I feel numb. She seemed like she was getting better after her surgery but things took a turn for the worse. She kept having seizures and we knew it was time to put her down. That's all I have in me to say right now. I'll write more later.

TMI: It's that time of month and my hormones are going crazy. I felt like I just started birth control again except without the whole crying nonsense. Today (the last day of my period) I'm feeling normal again. I'm not nearly as edgy as I was yesterday. I purposely avoided talking to everyone yesterday. Yim (my BFF) was a little sad that I didn't email him yesterday and seems to think that he can handle me. HA! Sure he can handle me but can he handle a hormonal J? Well, probably, but he'd probably get his feeling hurt. :P

Today after work I'm heading to my cousin L's new apartment. Our Mexico trip is coming up in 22 days and I wanted to go over some stuff with her before we leave. The plan is to go out to dinner and maybe a movie. I can't stay late because I have a dreaded dentist appointment tomorrow morning at 8:30. I'm upset that I'll have to miss another Jazzercise class. I always feel 100% on Saturdays after class. That's when I tend to give a lot of stuff done.

This Saturday all I have planned is tennis with the ladies. I'm fine with that. I don't really want to go out. I've been pushing myself so much lately that I could use a night off. And the next month is going to be extremely busy with work, classes, my birthday, my trip to Mexico and Thanksgiving. My head is spinning just thinking about it. 

Time to get back to work!

Soundtrack: Rachael Yamagata - The Only Fault