Not So Usual Blog

So today I posted this on Facebook. I figured I'd post it here too:

1. The odds of my mother and I surviving my birth was 1 in 6 million. Needless to say, I was a miracle.

2. I am a true Jason Mraz fanatic! I've been to 13 of his concerts since 2003.

3. When I get nervous I have a weird habit of yawning over and over again.

4. I take Jazzercise classes 3 days a week and I LOVE IT!

5. My guilty pleasure is The Bad Girls Club on Oxygen. It's such trash but I'm totally addicted.

6. As much as I loath Perez Hilton, I'm totally addicted to his website.

7. My life goal is to buy a home and become financially stable.

8. My favorite song of all time is "California" by Joni Mitchell.

9. I'm becoming my mother and I'm not even trying to fight it.

10. I never thought I wanted to have children until recently. I'm not in any rush but at least I know that it's something that I want in the future.

11. If I have a daughter I still plan on naming her Lilianna even though that's what I named my dog. I can always tell her I named her after a dog just like my mother told me my middle name came from a cat.

12. I do believe my aunt's death brought me closer to my family. I couldn't thank her enough for that.

13. I've been a fan of the paranormal ever since having my first experience several years ago.

14. My brother and I are so psychically connected that we can answer each others questions without even asking them.

15. I was raised a Christian Scientist. I left at age 12. I briefly returned to the church after my aunt past away but quit again because I felt that I wasn't there for me, I was there for her.

16. I hope to one day move to San Diego.

17. I was in choir for 6 years. I quit at COC because I couldn't handle the teacher's personality.

18. I've been to over 15 Broadway shows.

19. I sing the same song ("Gravity" by Sara Bareilles) every day in the shower.

20. I love beer. My favorite right now is Blue Moon.

21. I'm 26 and still feel like a kid, just with a lot more responsibilities.

22. My one true fear is clowns.

23. I have an addiction to overusing emoticons.

24. I don't like talking on the phone unless it's with someone that I haven't talked to in a really long time.

25. I honestly feel that there is no room in my heart for hate and those who have hurt me in the past have been forgiven and forgotten.

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I've been meaning to write but haven't had much motivation. I need to get back into my old habits. I've been slipping. I haven't been watching what I eat and I've noticed I've been gaining weight back. Seeing as I'm starting birth control again on Sunday, I know that now is the time to get back to eating right because I sure as hell don't want to gain that weight back. I'm also motivated because I'm going to Vegas with my friends and boyfriend in June. We're renting a cabana at Mandalay Bay so I want to look and feel my best. :)

Things with the man are really good. I hit a rough patch last week. You see, I haven't had many lasting relationships (I'm supposed to blame this one on dad.) because I have a tendency to push men away once my feelings start coming into play. Well it got to that point where I honestly wanted to run away. It wasn't him, it was the simple fact that I realized I was falling for him. I can't hurt him. I care about him too much. I have to remember this when I get that feeling. 

That's it for now. I'll catch up soon.

I am normally a pretty optimistic person but this week has really drained me. I'm mentally and physically exhausted. The little sleep I've gotten this week has affected my work week in a major way. One of my neighbors got some DJ equipment for Christmas so now I'm forced to listen to crappy techno music every single night from 6 until whenever he retires for the night. Wednesday night I was woken up 3 times during the middle of the night because he was having a party. I didn't call the cops because they've been kind enough to endure the noises from my previous parties but this is just completely ridiculous. Next time, I'm calling the cops. I don't care anymore.

I've made a whole series of mistakes at work this week. I can't seem to do anything right and I'm basically feeling like a bull in a china shop. I've been yelled at by several clients this week. I went to charge a client's credit card for 9k and accidentally charged their card for 91k. I quickly refunded it only to find out that I could have voided it out instead. By refunding the card that money (91,000!!) was being held on their card so they couldn't use it. I almost had a heart attack and successfully pissed my boss off. I think I'm officially on her shit list. I'm praying that next week is better.

I started my classes this week. I'm regretting not continuing my excersises while I was on my month break. I was so tired after the first 2 songs but I pushed myself and made it. On Tuesday I had my weight lifting class. She made it pretty simple seeing that it was our first day back. Although I felt really good after leaving there my body was hating me the next day. It made it harder for my Jazzercise class last night. It didn't help that I was totally exhausted from not getting any sleep the previous night.

Well, hopefully next week will be better. I'm spending the whole weekend with Rick so I know I'll sleep well. It's really cute when we sleep together because we start off cuddling and through the night we break apart and then wake up back in the cuddle position. I prefer to sleep on my stomach so in the mornings I wake up and he's laying halfway on my back with his head on mine. I usually wake up to kisses on my shoulder. He's an extremely loving guy so he's heavy on the romance which makes me feel terrific and really boosts my self-confidence. What can I say, I'm a lucky girl. :) 

I forgot to mention in my previous post that I start my Jazzercise classes again this week. Seeing as I know evey one there I don't have to be nervous this time around. I purposely didn't start "dieting" (Weight Watchers) again until today because I wanted to get all of the crap eating out my system. I have to say that I didn't eat horribly last week. I did indulge in a little chocolate (which is to be expected during to that time of the month) but other than that I did pretty good.

My Jazzercise classes are on Monday, Thursday and Saturdays. My weight lifting class is only on Tuesdays. I'm ready to get back into the routine. I hate that we have to go for a month in between classes every 3-4 months. I know once I start though that I'm going to drop the weight at a quicker pace rather than relying on myself to work out on my own time. I have my first weigh in of the year tomorrow. Since I know how much I weigh it won't be much of a surprise.

I'll update with my weight loss progress again on the following Tuesday.

Well I only got a few things done this weekend. I didn't make it to the grocery store. I didn't finish my laundry. I didn't get caulk. I didn't play tennis. I didn't give Lily a bath. However, I did get my car washed. I did start laundry. I did get sheets for my bed.

Speaking of sheets, I went to Macy's to find some new sheets for my bed with little success. My mother suggested that I try Home Goods so we trekked over there. Luckily I found 500 count sheets and a 450 count duvet cover for $90!! The duvet cover at Macy's alone was over $100 so finding both sheets and duvet cover was awesome. My wallet thanked me.

After we went to Home Goods my mother and I went to Wood Ranch for lunch. The food is always good even though it's a little pricier than Rattlers BBQ. I had the tri-tip salad. It's only spring lettuce, gorgonzola crumbles and tri-tip but it's SO good. Anyway, my mom and I are sitting there talking, laughing and have a good time like always and one of the waitresses (not ours) comes up and stops us in the middle of our conversation. She's like, "I'm sorry to interrupt you but I just had to say that I was standing over there (at the computer) thinking about what a horrible day I was having and I looked at you and you had this big, genuine smile on your face and it really just made me feel so much better." I was really blown away by that. I mean she wasn't my waitress so she wasn't fishing for a tip or anything. I just thought that it was incredibly nice because she didn't even have to say anything, but she did.

Later on I went to see Benjamin Button with the sisters. It was a really great movie and didn't even seem like it was 3 hours long. Brad Pitt looked amazing. I usually am not a fan of his but he did an incredible job mastering the character. The movie in some parts, reminded me of Forest Gump. After the movie I dropped the sisters off, did a beer run and went home.

Rick came over awhile later and we drank beer and watched Pineapple Express. Mike, Roxy, Marc and Sarah came over before their movie to do hookah with us. Rick borrowed his brother's hookah and we smoked a mixture of grape and apple. It was pretty tasty. After they left Rick and I got in bed and watched the rest of Pineapple Express before crashing. It was damn near impossible for us to get up at 6am the next morning to go feed those damn horses.

We fed the horses and drove back to my house. We went back to sleep until 10 when Stephanie (my bff) called and said she was coming down to hang out. I was so excited to see her. She came down and we hung out drinking beer until she left around 8. I fell asleep soon after due to the comfort of my bed. The weekend turned into pure laziness. I'm blaming the sheets.

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Something that is bothering me is that Rick's ex girlfriend keeps calling him. He told her he's taken but she still keeps calling. He told me that she messaged him online yesterday asking if he wanted to go get a drink and asked me what he should say without being mean. I told him, "Tell her that you have a girlfriend who is going to kick your ass if you do." I doubt he actually told her that but he said he resolved the situation and that she probably won't be bugging him anymore. I hope that's the truth because I'm going to have a few unkind words for her if she continues that bullshit. I'm a scorpion woman and I'll share my lunch and I'll share my money (to the worthy) but I sure as shit won't share my man. 

It's 10:30am and here are my plans:

Mission Accomplished:

• Car Wash
  

Car Wash

Yesterday started out completely shitty. Rick was having a horrible day and so was I. Some asshole chased me off the freeway and was trying to fuck with me. I normally would have just laughed off the whole situation but I was genuinely scared. This guy was truly upset with me for no apparent reason.

What started the whole thing is that I was right next to this guy on the freeway and he wanted to get over so I sped up so he could get behind me and then he ended up tailgating me off the freeway. He pulled up along side of me and was screaming at me. I just held my hands up at him like, "What did I do?" As soon as we both turn he immediately cuts me off, gets in front of me and keeps slamming on his brakes trying to get me to rear end him. It was crazy and by that time I was considering calling the cops because there is no telling what this man was capable of doing. This went off for about a mile before I had to turn and he had to go straight.

I had just finished eating dinner when Rick text me asking, "Do you like surprises?" and I replied with, "Only the good ones." Four minutes later he was knocking on my bedroom door. I was very surprised, more so questioning how he managed to get in my house with the front door locked. Apparently he got to my house right as my brother pulled up so Mike let Rick in the house. Honestly, him being there was what I needed. He was the highlight of my day. And we shared this intense kiss that made me weak in the knees. I was literally ready to rip his clothes off. Unfortunately, that didn't happen because we're taking things slow.

We ended up watching Ghost Hunters International before we both ended up passing out. He was supposed to leave at 11 so he could get to work on time. I told him to set his alarm and he did. However, he didn't wake up to it. At midnight his phone rang and he jumped out of bed. I woke up to him kissing me saying, "Don't get up" as he bolted out the door. Of course I had to get up anyway because I had to lock the front door behind him. He text me when he got to work, 45 minutes later. Fortunately he didn't get in trouble for it. He assured me that everything was fine and I finally allowed myself to drift back off into dreamland.  

I woke up late this morning. I was hoping to get up on time (5:30) to straighten my hair and even after Rick's persistent texts trying to wake me up, I didn't wake up until 6. I swung into lightning mode and flat ironed my hair in 20 minutes (it usually takes double the amount time) and got ready. I was out the door by 7 and got to work early. I had my credit meeting and now I'm free to relax for the remainder of the week.

So far my schedule this weekend is to go to the movies with Sue Ann on Saturday afternoon. Saturday night I'm going on a double date with Rick's brother and his wife. It'll be nice to meet a family member of his. His parents are in Utah so the only family he has out here are his brothers and sister. On Sunday all I have planned is playing tennis with Coreen. We haven't played since the beginning of December so we're both long overdue. This is getting way to long and I've gotta go on my walk with my coworker so peace out!  

I hope everyone had a wonderful New Year. I spent my night with my boyfriend and his friends at a house in the middle of nowhere. We ended up leaving early because he had to work at 11:45. Although I didn't get my midnight kiss I still got one at 11:30. :) It was exactly as I expected, my toes curled and I felt butterflies. I'm glad I realize ahead of time what a lucky girl I really am. I feel so bad for the fact that in his past relationships, his girlfriends would walk all over him and they took advantage of his kindness. He's the kind of guy who will give you the jacket off his back even though it's 20 degrees out.

This year I've made one new years resolution which is to continue on my weight loss journey. My classes start up again next week and I can't wait! I can easily say that I've gained at least 10lbs since my classes ended back in early December. I've felt like such a sorry lump of crap ever since they ended. I've been eating anything and everything and I know that has to stop. I'm back on track this week so hopefully that'll give me a little jump start for next week.

Tonight Rick is coming over and I'm dragging him grocery shopping with me. I'm planning on cooking grilled chicken with garlic new potatos and veggies. He lives off of fast food so I try to put a real meal in his belly from time to time and when I do he is forever greatful. I should point out that he's a pretty lucky guy too. :P

That's it for now. I'll blog again soon. Peace

Looking back on 2008, what were the highlights of your year?

Here are a few:

• Started taking fitness classes and lost 40+ lbs.
• Took my first cruise and vacation in 4+ years.
• Saw my 11th, 12th and 13th Jason Mraz show and loved every minute of them.
• Lost and regained my friendship with my best friend Yim. Things are still uneven but we're working on it.
• I became closer with my cousins from both sides of the family.
• I let my guard down and allowed someone access to my heart. I gave him a chance and I'm so happy I did.

Christmas is coming! Thankfully I am officially done with all of my Christmas shopping. I did my last run to Target this morning. I've spent entirely too much money this season but I can't help the fact that I love to give. I can't wait for people to open their gifts from me. I tried to be creative this season. At work my co-worker and I threw the corporate Christmas party. I had an idea of doing an Oscar ceremony since our theme this season was movie related. I had the people in the office vote best actress, actor, comedian, director and most animated. The usual suspects won the awards. Here are some of the pictures:

  So things with the guy are going really well. On Friday night we went on a double date to the movies with Lacie and Mo. We went to see Saw V. It was more storyline than anything. That night I stayed at Rick's and wow it was COLD! You see, Rick lives in Agua Dulce aka the middle of nowhere! He lives on a dirt road which is always an adventure for my tc. They got snow a few days before so you can imagine how cold it is up there.

So we get back to his place and he had accidently left a window open so it was a little higher than 25 degrees in his room. I could literally see my breath in his room. I only had some sweats and a ribbed tank top so I was very cold. He wrapped me up in his blankets and I slept glued up against him the whole night. Everytime I moved my face on the pillow I was jolted awake with the freezing cold tempature of the pillow.

I'll give it another chance again though because it makes life a hell of a lot easier on him when I stay there. He has to feed the horses at 6am every morning so having him leave my bed at 5:30 in the morning is a major bummer. :( It's nicer if he just has to get out of bed, go outside and feed them and then come back to bed. It's always nice having a warm body in your bed. It's especially nice if they're really cute. :)

Anyway I work Monday-Wednesday. I'm spending Christmas morning driving Rick to the airport so he can fly to Utah to visit his family. After that we'll have our Christmas morning here and then go over to the Pasadena house to spend the evening with my wonderful family. I am so blessed.

Happy Holidays.  

I suck. I know. I've been meaning to update but I've been pretty busy lately. My classes are ending. My last class is tomorrow after work. My classes start up again in the middle of January. Until then, I'm going to try to get some workouts in to keep myself from gaining any weight.

Some of my free time has been taken up by a guy. I believe I mentioned him in my previous entry. His name is Rick and he is truly a wonderful man. He is very respectful and would do anything to make me happy. My mom approves of him which is great. I met some of his friends and they are very nice and fun to be around. Things are going really well. We're not officially boyfriend and girlfriend yet. We're trying not to rush things but it's pretty obvious to everyone that we're smitten.     

I'll update on more later. It's getting late and I'm exhausted. Peace.